They tell me I will never be.
They tell me I will never be who I am because they say its just to hard.
They crush my dreams, trying to protect me.
But in reality, they've just prevented me from being me.
From being who I really am, to who I can truly achieve to be.
They tell me to think realisticly, for the real world will 'eat me alive'.
But I can eat back. I can be strong. I have a voice.
I am realistic, for to me to be realistic is for me to live in reality. In reality I am real. Real. Real to be me. Free to be me.
I want to achieve my dream, for I know each day I am that much closer. But each day, I end up that much farther, for the words they tell me are my reality just pull me back from my ladder of hope.
Words that kill, like bullets to my soul. Leaving permanent wounds that will forever haunt my mind. "That's stupid. That's unreal. That's too big"
But I could never dream to big, because the bigger, the better.
I realize to dream big, I have to be big.
Bigger than these meager words. Big enough to crush them into pieces and get them out of my mind. Because these words are not mine so they do not belong in my mind.
They try, they try and they try. But I will not let them succeed.
I will not let them take my mind, my soul and my heart and terrorize them like 9/11. For I will not let them bring me down.
Haters can hate. But watch, one day they will appreciate what I've become, to who I am.
I am strong, I need no protection.
I am big like a skyscraper. A strong building that needs no armour, but instead a strong support system.
I have dream. A dream, I will make a reality. No matter how long it takes, I will be big. My mother says we all grow at different times.
Like a flower im gonna bloom.
The words they feed me like pesticide will have no affect over the love I recieve from my rain and my sun.
The words they feed me just prove to them to be a chemical, poison to my soul.
I am big with a mind of my own. A mind I have control over. I am my own. But never will I be alone.
Their words, they tempt me to give up like the devil tempting Jesus.
But I have angels. Angels that walk with me on the ground, that spread their wings to help me up.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Let's take a little walk...
To walk a mile in the other's shoes.
What does that mean?
Does it mean we have to live through another's hardships? Or could we look at both sides and see their happiness as well. To understand the other, we have to see everything in their eyes. To understand how someone can be who they are, we need to see why they are.
To walk a mile in another's shoes. Has always been said so others will realize how hard the other person's life may be. But could we apply this in any other way?
I see it as a chance to understand why someone could love their life. Even if I'm their opposite. We all have different priorities, and it's those priorities that give us the adrenaline to move on in life.
People often say, I don't understand you. But did you try to understand. Everyone is different. But I believe that if you try to understand another person, then could you see that you don't have to think like them, but understand that what they like makes them happy. There's so much missing from peoples lives.
To be understood, you have to understand.
If it makes people happy to live as a conformist. Then do so.
If people dance to a different beat. Allow them. It's their happiness, not yours. If we were all too different, our world would be in a much more dangerous, lonely state.
Difference is good. But unity is better.
Im not suggesting we all live like clones. But that one step of understanding will bring us to another level.
What does that mean?
Does it mean we have to live through another's hardships? Or could we look at both sides and see their happiness as well. To understand the other, we have to see everything in their eyes. To understand how someone can be who they are, we need to see why they are.
To walk a mile in another's shoes. Has always been said so others will realize how hard the other person's life may be. But could we apply this in any other way?
I see it as a chance to understand why someone could love their life. Even if I'm their opposite. We all have different priorities, and it's those priorities that give us the adrenaline to move on in life.
People often say, I don't understand you. But did you try to understand. Everyone is different. But I believe that if you try to understand another person, then could you see that you don't have to think like them, but understand that what they like makes them happy. There's so much missing from peoples lives.
To be understood, you have to understand.
If it makes people happy to live as a conformist. Then do so.
If people dance to a different beat. Allow them. It's their happiness, not yours. If we were all too different, our world would be in a much more dangerous, lonely state.
Difference is good. But unity is better.
Im not suggesting we all live like clones. But that one step of understanding will bring us to another level.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
HYPOCRISY
hyp⋅o⋅crite /ˈhɪpəkrɪt/ [hip-uh-krit]
–noun 1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.
Quite the touchy subject. Hypocrisy is a lot more common now in teenagers, well from what I see. From the defenition of a hypocrite it posseses quite a negative meaning. One society looks down on. Many of its synonyms aren't as pleasing either. Words like pretender or deciever accompany hypocrite in the dictionary. It's not exactly something anyone wants to be called. To be called a hypocrite isn't ideal. Under the definition and using today's more popular slang terms you may as well call the person a faker or plastic
As teenagers live by this. We don't know everything. There's many things we are undecided on. We know a little. We don't know a lot. But this learning experience is a part of life. A lot of the time, many of us will seem like one of these dreaded hypocrites. It's not as if we intend to be this fake, but as a teenager you'll wake up likeing one thing one day and by the next day you realize you don't anymore. Growing up and learning, we'll be fickle. A lot of the time being fickle may seem like being a hypocrite. We create these opinions and thoughts based on what we're told, what we hear or see from others. Sometimes many of us keep these opinions but sometimes we experience things ourselves and we change our mind. In a growing, changing society we are a different generation from those before us. Selena Gomez made quite a good point by also blogging about how a teenager will say things one day and do it the next. This. Is. Life.
Growing up during adolescence we will experiment between thoughts. We will experiment trying different fashion styles. We will experiment with different foods to find out favourite. We will experiment with friends, music, opinions even sexual orientation just to find what we like. We hunt for our individuality and as that happens we will live with hypocrisy.
Sometimes we do know what is wrong, and at the right time we will say it. But the thing is we don't always think. We live in the moment. But is it still being a hypocrite if after what we've done, we realize our mistakes?
Hypocrisy could be like changing your opinion. Or just learning from mistakes.
They do say that learning from your mistakes is the best way to embedd something into your mind.
Hypocricy is just a matter of learning. Saying what's wrong. Knowing what's wrong. Doing what's wrong. Learning from it. That is life.
–noun 1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.
Quite the touchy subject. Hypocrisy is a lot more common now in teenagers, well from what I see. From the defenition of a hypocrite it posseses quite a negative meaning. One society looks down on. Many of its synonyms aren't as pleasing either. Words like pretender or deciever accompany hypocrite in the dictionary. It's not exactly something anyone wants to be called. To be called a hypocrite isn't ideal. Under the definition and using today's more popular slang terms you may as well call the person a faker or plastic
As teenagers live by this. We don't know everything. There's many things we are undecided on. We know a little. We don't know a lot. But this learning experience is a part of life. A lot of the time, many of us will seem like one of these dreaded hypocrites. It's not as if we intend to be this fake, but as a teenager you'll wake up likeing one thing one day and by the next day you realize you don't anymore. Growing up and learning, we'll be fickle. A lot of the time being fickle may seem like being a hypocrite. We create these opinions and thoughts based on what we're told, what we hear or see from others. Sometimes many of us keep these opinions but sometimes we experience things ourselves and we change our mind. In a growing, changing society we are a different generation from those before us. Selena Gomez made quite a good point by also blogging about how a teenager will say things one day and do it the next. This. Is. Life.
Growing up during adolescence we will experiment between thoughts. We will experiment trying different fashion styles. We will experiment with different foods to find out favourite. We will experiment with friends, music, opinions even sexual orientation just to find what we like. We hunt for our individuality and as that happens we will live with hypocrisy.
Sometimes we do know what is wrong, and at the right time we will say it. But the thing is we don't always think. We live in the moment. But is it still being a hypocrite if after what we've done, we realize our mistakes?
Hypocrisy could be like changing your opinion. Or just learning from mistakes.
They do say that learning from your mistakes is the best way to embedd something into your mind.
Hypocricy is just a matter of learning. Saying what's wrong. Knowing what's wrong. Doing what's wrong. Learning from it. That is life.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
What is Fate
Do you believe in fate, destiny or magic? Or do you believe that we choose our futures? Could it be that all of this works together? From what I see we're born with natural likes, dislikes, talents and more. Normally, these may mold what we choose to help support our selves in the future. A person who had a liking for music and was quite the musician may opt for a career in music. A person interested in art may opt to follow that career field. I understand we go to school to learn, but our future may be fate as well as being in our control. Its up to us to use what we have already been born with and mold it to our success.
I really would prefer not to include relgious beliefs into my blog but I believe that God gave us a life, and he gave us a future seeing how he is timeless and lives in the past, present and future. I believe that he provides us with the freedom to choose our future with what he has given us. Our talents, likes and dislikes may just be the hints he uses to help us. I believe that he put us on this path provide us with options and its up to us to use that power to pick what we want to be happy. Some may aspire to be where they already other, others may aspire to become more. I think that God puts fate and our control together to make our future.
Its a little bit confusing, but thats my theory.
I really would prefer not to include relgious beliefs into my blog but I believe that God gave us a life, and he gave us a future seeing how he is timeless and lives in the past, present and future. I believe that he provides us with the freedom to choose our future with what he has given us. Our talents, likes and dislikes may just be the hints he uses to help us. I believe that he put us on this path provide us with options and its up to us to use that power to pick what we want to be happy. Some may aspire to be where they already other, others may aspire to become more. I think that God puts fate and our control together to make our future.
Its a little bit confusing, but thats my theory.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Friends
Humans, as I've mentioned in other posts are social beings. We rely on relationships with others. Friends are people we meet through out our life. We've become close enough to some to consider them family. Well, as we grow we change. Unfortunately with these changes comes with some losses and gains for balance. Its hard to grow up and keep everything as it was. Its a sad realization, but we don't have to lose our close friends. Its all a matter of balance.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Its been killing me
If you read this, fine. Whatever. My punishment for putting it on the internet right? Well, don't give your bs bout it okay? Don't tell me stupid things like 'hate is wrong' whatever. Thats just a giant load of bull. Dont tell me pointless things like 'be positive' that really shows how well you really do know me. I get angry. I'm human, shoot me! I make mistakes, but there's no denying I don't go back on them and try to make it better. I believe in all that zen stuff. I believe in karma. I believe in the Golden Rule. So yes, if you read this well. I feel like saying what's on my mind. So I may retaliate. Just saying, I have a way with words, I can get harsh. Even if I'll regret it later on and apologize, carpe diem. You have been warned.
I hate the way you make me feel small. Its as if I'm below you, where everything I do seems so shocking to you or its as if its a joke. I'm growing up. I'm going through life. Everything changes. I change. One time I may think I like pink, the next minute I'm in love with the colour blue. I'm learning. Leave me alone. That girl you knew, well she's still here it's just that I've added more to her. I'm not stupid, I love who I was. I love who I am. Despite my many faults, this is what defines me. I am not that kind of person though. That much, I do know.
I hate the way you judge me, the way you make me feel insecure. To the point that I hate being around you, I just hate it. I hate how everything I do recieves some sort of critism. But I'm a big girl. I can take it, but its at the point where its, 'Is this what a friend does?'
I hate the way where if people read this they'll assume I'm hating on someone. Are you crazy? Can you not read? Did I ever mention the words ,' I hate you.' I hate what people do. I can hate that an alcoholic drinks, but what if that's my friend? Well I can't hate them right, I still love them. Well these subconcious things we do, well its just like that. Nothing but a bad habit.
I will never hate you. I will never hate who you are. I will hate what you've done. But you're a part of my life. Never will I hate you.
I hate the way that I'm going crazy over this lack of communication and its killing me. The way its been bothering me so much, that I don't talk about it. Instead I let it kill me inside. I'm a talker, if you know me well enough you should be aware that I like to talk things out.
I hate how I'm quite impulsive. I hate how later on I know I will regret pouring out my current feelings on something so public like facebook. I hate how I do a lot without thinking about it enough. I hate how I do think before doing, but I still have this habit of being so careless. Yes I used that word, the word I utterly hate. I don't believe everyone is careless, I think theyre care free. Thinking of the world in a positive matter, thinking of living to the day. But yes, I hate my impulse. I hate my judgement. I hate a lot about myself, but we don't want anyone to start thinking I'm emo now do we?
I hate the way you make me feel as if I will never be enough for you. I hate the way you judge me and what I do. I hate the way you talk to me as if I'm stupider than you. I don't care if you don't intend to make me feel that way, but your actions. It all makes me feel like this.
I express myself in words. Thats who I am. That will never change. What I say or write is exactly how I feel. It is exactly what goes through my mind at the moment. I am what comes out of my mouth. I am a talker. I am word smart. I can't think of any other way to express myself than with words.
I hate the way you make me feel small. Its as if I'm below you, where everything I do seems so shocking to you or its as if its a joke. I'm growing up. I'm going through life. Everything changes. I change. One time I may think I like pink, the next minute I'm in love with the colour blue. I'm learning. Leave me alone. That girl you knew, well she's still here it's just that I've added more to her. I'm not stupid, I love who I was. I love who I am. Despite my many faults, this is what defines me. I am not that kind of person though. That much, I do know.
I hate the way you judge me, the way you make me feel insecure. To the point that I hate being around you, I just hate it. I hate how everything I do recieves some sort of critism. But I'm a big girl. I can take it, but its at the point where its, 'Is this what a friend does?'
I hate the way where if people read this they'll assume I'm hating on someone. Are you crazy? Can you not read? Did I ever mention the words ,' I hate you.' I hate what people do. I can hate that an alcoholic drinks, but what if that's my friend? Well I can't hate them right, I still love them. Well these subconcious things we do, well its just like that. Nothing but a bad habit.
I will never hate you. I will never hate who you are. I will hate what you've done. But you're a part of my life. Never will I hate you.
I hate the way that I'm going crazy over this lack of communication and its killing me. The way its been bothering me so much, that I don't talk about it. Instead I let it kill me inside. I'm a talker, if you know me well enough you should be aware that I like to talk things out.
I hate how I'm quite impulsive. I hate how later on I know I will regret pouring out my current feelings on something so public like facebook. I hate how I do a lot without thinking about it enough. I hate how I do think before doing, but I still have this habit of being so careless. Yes I used that word, the word I utterly hate. I don't believe everyone is careless, I think theyre care free. Thinking of the world in a positive matter, thinking of living to the day. But yes, I hate my impulse. I hate my judgement. I hate a lot about myself, but we don't want anyone to start thinking I'm emo now do we?
I hate the way you make me feel as if I will never be enough for you. I hate the way you judge me and what I do. I hate the way you talk to me as if I'm stupider than you. I don't care if you don't intend to make me feel that way, but your actions. It all makes me feel like this.
I express myself in words. Thats who I am. That will never change. What I say or write is exactly how I feel. It is exactly what goes through my mind at the moment. I am what comes out of my mouth. I am a talker. I am word smart. I can't think of any other way to express myself than with words.
What's The Difference?
We, as a society live with hypocricy, as a society. We have groups advocating towards anti-bullying. Telling us that cyber bullying is wrong. But its still not helping a lot. The reason is, from my view that is. Is that media is the reason for it.
We use media to express our medium or message to our audience. But its not working. Bullying isn't declining quite quickly, though people are becoming more aware. Well it's because the media itself bullies.
Think about it. We see celebrities constantly gossiped about. We see their faults being picked at. We see their whole lives as someone reveals it to the whole world. Celebrities have parodies and art made of them that make fun of them.
Well, would we ever allow one to do that to a 'normal' person? So why do we accept it when it happens to a celebrity. Celebrities, or more so actresses or singers should not have to pay a price for their industry. If fame and hate is this price, have we forgotten what our faith tells us? The Golden Rule always taught us to treat others as we would like to be treated.
We use media to express our medium or message to our audience. But its not working. Bullying isn't declining quite quickly, though people are becoming more aware. Well it's because the media itself bullies.
Think about it. We see celebrities constantly gossiped about. We see their faults being picked at. We see their whole lives as someone reveals it to the whole world. Celebrities have parodies and art made of them that make fun of them.
Well, would we ever allow one to do that to a 'normal' person? So why do we accept it when it happens to a celebrity. Celebrities, or more so actresses or singers should not have to pay a price for their industry. If fame and hate is this price, have we forgotten what our faith tells us? The Golden Rule always taught us to treat others as we would like to be treated.
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