I surrender

There's a part of me that just wants to give up. In tagalog I would be saying "Gusto ko na sumoko." Or something like that. The stresses I face. The stresses each of us face. Can all be so troubling, tiring, and hopeless.

Have you ever had the feeling that nothing you do is enough?

Where you feel that there is too much for you to face and the easiest thing would be to just surrender. How do you know what love is? How do we know that our friends are true? When will we ever know. The pursuit for answers to questions like this is just exhausting. What happens if you've made a million and one mistakes? Then can you give up? Can we give up when we haven't made any mistakes or successes? When can we say we give up? Should we ever give up? I know life can get very tiring sometimes. But to me. It's never the right time to give up.

I'm Scared

I'm scared of who I am. I'm scared of who I may be. I'm scared of change. The unbearable thought that at any moment everything may grow and change everything all around for the best or the worst just scares me. I'm scared that who I am right now will never be who I am in twenty of thirty years. But the thing is, I want to grow up. I want to find out who I am. Suffering from a current identity crisis I'm absolutely unaware of who I am. I don't even know what I am. This constant fear that my 'successes' will be my only achievements scares me. I'm scared that all that I've acheived, will be the only things I will ever achieve. Please help me. Please help me with this fear. I've never been one to handle stress well or change. I'm scared that I will fall again. Help me because, I'm scared.

You can't handle the truth?

Why tell a lie when it's something so small? Why can't you tell the truth? I understand telling big lies, sometimes theyre to said to protect. But this, it's such a small lie. Yet you still said it, and it still hurt. When you consider someone such a close friend, what do you do when they do something like this?

How could I let that happen?

Every skyscraper stands out but without it's support it just comes tumbling down.

Going on this journey I call life I've met some quite amazing people. If I never met these people I'd probably be someone else. The thing is, I let these people drift away and it was when I let these people drift that my world came tumbling down. I looked for support in the wrong people and I just couldn't stand up again. I'm just happy to say that my worlds coming back to me. I've found the right people again and I'm doing better. Slowly I rebuild myself and all of that begins with my support. With out these people I really wouldn't be me and I have proved that I lost myself. A slow downhill fall, with my life spiraling out of control. I'm getting back on track and it's getting better.
These are letters made for the people in my life decide which one is for you.

I wanna say I'm sorry. I let you drift away and that was a really dumb move. I can say that I've suffered cause losing you in my life has made me lost myself. But that's what growing up is right? It's making decisions and mistakes and that's how we learn. If I didn't make these mistakes I wouldn't find the value in you. I've realized now that some people just have so much more worth that we let them realize. I've taken our friendship for granted and it wasn't till something else happened that I realized my stupidity. I honestly do not have common sense, I always thought I could do things alone. If people just 'disappeared' from my life I thought that I'd be able to do without them. It isn't till now that I realized no one disappears from your life unless you let them. I really want to say thank you that no matter what, you'll always be in my mind and heart. Looking in a mirror I'm not gonna forget that. I'm not gonna forget you.

Thank you! Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for sticking with my despite all my stupidity. Thank you for helping me realize stupid people in my life. Thank you for helping me see that I still have a lot to learn. Thank you for teaching me that it's okay to be imperfect, that it's okay to be loud and more. Thank you for sticking with me even if I pushed you away. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

New friends, old friends; is there really a difference? A friend is a friend. It's like a soulmate somehow. People believe that when you meet that soulmate you just have that instant attraction to them, even without getting to know them. You two just click. It's kind of like love at first sight. Well, new friends become old friends and I hope we stay like that for the rest of our lifes. Yes we have a million years to live, and I want to spend those million years with you.

Sorry, I've really been on this whole 'friendship hype'. I've just been so down and about with friends. I've been trying to realize who I am and who I'm not and who really holds my up. When I get really bothered by things like this I just keep writing or talking about it till it gets out of my system.

Happiness.

Has anyone seen the movie, "The Pursuit of Happiness"? Such a moving movie with an amazing meaning. The most amazing part is the fact that it is based on a true story. Well what would we base our happiness on? Is it the amount of money we have? The amount of friends we have? What makes up true happiness. If anything I think true happiness is me. It is you. Each of us are all so different. How could we shrink the meaning of happiness to one type. There's not just one type of human is there? We are tall, small, wide, thin, smart, loving, kind, mean. We all like different things so how could we possible confine the meaning of happiness to one type?

Liars.

We live in such a big world it would be impossible to please everyone without telling at least one lie. It's a very pessimistic way of looking at everything but without a doubt, it is a little bit true. We're in a world with 6,706,993,152 people. That`s 6,706,993,152 different people, 6,706,993,152 different personalities, 6,706,993,152 unique people. All of us were made to be one of a kind, yes we can find people we get along with but of course we'd find people with whom we couldn't get along with. So why do we continue to pursue success by creating a mask, or a new story for each person we meet. Who said being nice was to like everything someone else liked? Who said being nice was only possible if you could agree with everything someone else said? Who said that being nice wasn't achievable if you didn't like what someone else liked? The thing is, it is possible. With 6,706,993,152 different people in the world, and all the combinations of personalities you're bound to find something you like about that person. As that is possible you're going to find something you don't like. If a friend wants to vent about certain things I do, I absolutely understand. I'm not perfect, you're not perfect, no one is perfect. So why try to be? We all think differently. As long as my friend doesn't disgrace my own personality or mind I have no problem with it. That's how we grow up and learn. It is through constructive critism that we expand. I would want my friend to tell me, "Oh I didn't like that." Because if they didn't tell me things, how do I grow up? I'll continue these mistakes. I don't need a friend who wears a mask. No. I need a friend who will make me a better person. This doesn't mean I want someone who changes me to be like them. Again, 6,706,993,152 people in the world. Each one is different. But I would like someone to tell me when I'm doing something negative. No one wants a liar, just because your lie isn't a negative lie it doesn't mean it makes it any better. A lie is a lie. Lies can't please anyone.

If the only way I'll be happy with you is a lie, I'd rather be miserable.

My very first blog that would seem the most like a blog as I will tell you something about my day, rather than my mind.
Well, I was looking through various blogs and I came upon one I could relate to quite well. This girl was blogging about her and her 'best friend' with whom she had drifted away from. This 'best friend' of hers looks as if she wants to remain friends with her, but she isn't it doing it in the right ways. Asking others, giving looks, its just not right. She continues on to mention something about stopping her 'best friends' current behaviour, or her 'best friend' should attempt direct contact because she is tired of trying. There is one thing I'd like to say to this person, "Amen to that!" I agree. Friendship its like a bridge, it has to start at two ends and meet in the middle. There can't be any gaps in this bridge. Well I think she has the correct view on what a friendship is. It's a two-way street. It requires both people to work together. Friends are equal beings. They walk together, they talk together, they think together. A friend can not always expect the other to go to them. It's hard. We can't always impress you. There are times when you have to go to others.

So I don't usually do this

Have you ever felt empty? Where you just want to sit there, and just sit there. You don't want to think, you don't want to speak, you don't want to do anything. It sounds so depressing yet you're not depressed. You don't even feel anything. Sometimes this could be the best time to look at your life, and reflect upon it.

Girls need to realize....

Take in these words...
WRITTEN BY A GUY

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

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Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
Every Guy who isn't a jerkwill agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.