Imma be big.

They tell me I will never be.

They tell me I will never be who I am because they say its just to hard.

They crush my dreams, trying to protect me.

But in reality, they've just prevented me from being me.

From being who I really am, to who I can truly achieve to be.

They tell me to think realisticly, for the real world will 'eat me alive'.

But I can eat back. I can be strong. I have a voice.

I am realistic, for to me to be realistic is for me to live in reality. In reality I am real. Real. Real to be me. Free to be me.

I want to achieve my dream, for I know each day I am that much closer. But each day, I end up that much farther, for the words they tell me are my reality just pull me back from my ladder of hope.

Words that kill, like bullets to my soul. Leaving permanent wounds that will forever haunt my mind. "That's stupid. That's unreal. That's too big"

But I could never dream to big, because the bigger, the better.

I realize to dream big, I have to be big.

Bigger than these meager words. Big enough to crush them into pieces and get them out of my mind. Because these words are not mine so they do not belong in my mind.

They try, they try and they try. But I will not let them succeed.

I will not let them take my mind, my soul and my heart and terrorize them like 9/11. For I will not let them bring me down.

Haters can hate. But watch, one day they will appreciate what I've become, to who I am.

I am strong, I need no protection.

I am big like a skyscraper. A strong building that needs no armour, but instead a strong support system.

I have dream. A dream, I will make a reality. No matter how long it takes, I will be big. My mother says we all grow at different times.

Like a flower im gonna bloom.

The words they feed me like pesticide will have no affect over the love I recieve from my rain and my sun.

The words they feed me just prove to them to be a chemical, poison to my soul.

I am big with a mind of my own. A mind I have control over. I am my own. But never will I be alone.

Their words, they tempt me to give up like the devil tempting Jesus.

But I have angels. Angels that walk with me on the ground, that spread their wings to help me up.

Let's take a little walk...

To walk a mile in the other's shoes.

What does that mean?

Does it mean we have to live through another's hardships? Or could we look at both sides and see their happiness as well. To understand the other, we have to see everything in their eyes. To understand how someone can be who they are, we need to see why they are.

To walk a mile in another's shoes. Has always been said so others will realize how hard the other person's life may be. But could we apply this in any other way?

I see it as a chance to understand why someone could love their life. Even if I'm their opposite. We all have different priorities, and it's those priorities that give us the adrenaline to move on in life.

People often say, I don't understand you. But did you try to understand. Everyone is different. But I believe that if you try to understand another person, then could you see that you don't have to think like them, but understand that what they like makes them happy. There's so much missing from peoples lives.

To be understood, you have to understand.

If it makes people happy to live as a conformist. Then do so.
If people dance to a different beat. Allow them. It's their happiness, not yours. If we were all too different, our world would be in a much more dangerous, lonely state.
Difference is good. But unity is better.
Im not suggesting we all live like clones. But that one step of understanding will bring us to another level.

HYPOCRISY

hyp⋅o⋅crite  /ˈhɪpəkrɪt/ [hip-uh-krit]

–noun 1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.

2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.

Quite the touchy subject. Hypocrisy is a lot more common now in teenagers, well from what I see. From the defenition of a hypocrite it posseses quite a negative meaning. One society looks down on. Many of its synonyms aren't as pleasing either. Words like pretender or deciever accompany hypocrite in the dictionary. It's not exactly something anyone wants to be called. To be called a hypocrite isn't ideal. Under the definition and using today's more popular slang terms you may as well call the person a faker or plastic

As teenagers live by this. We don't know everything. There's many things we are undecided on. We know a little. We don't know a lot. But this learning experience is a part of life. A lot of the time, many of us will seem like one of these dreaded hypocrites. It's not as if we intend to be this fake, but as a teenager you'll wake up likeing one thing one day and by the next day you realize you don't anymore. Growing up and learning, we'll be fickle. A lot of the time being fickle may seem like being a hypocrite. We create these opinions and thoughts based on what we're told, what we hear or see from others. Sometimes many of us keep these opinions but sometimes we experience things ourselves and we change our mind. In a growing, changing society we are a different generation from those before us. Selena Gomez made quite a good point by also blogging about how a teenager will say things one day and do it the next. This. Is. Life.

Growing up during adolescence we will experiment between thoughts. We will experiment trying different fashion styles. We will experiment with different foods to find out favourite. We will experiment with friends, music, opinions even sexual orientation just to find what we like. We hunt for our individuality and as that happens we will live with hypocrisy.

Sometimes we do know what is wrong, and at the right time we will say it. But the thing is we don't always think. We live in the moment. But is it still being a hypocrite if after what we've done, we realize our mistakes?

Hypocrisy could be like changing your opinion. Or just learning from mistakes.

They do say that learning from your mistakes is the best way to embedd something into your mind.

Hypocricy is just a matter of learning. Saying what's wrong. Knowing what's wrong. Doing what's wrong. Learning from it. That is life.

What is Fate

Do you believe in fate, destiny or magic? Or do you believe that we choose our futures? Could it be that all of this works together? From what I see we're born with natural likes, dislikes, talents and more. Normally, these may mold what we choose to help support our selves in the future. A person who had a liking for music and was quite the musician may opt for a career in music. A person interested in art may opt to follow that career field. I understand we go to school to learn, but our future may be fate as well as being in our control. Its up to us to use what we have already been born with and mold it to our success.

I really would prefer not to include relgious beliefs into my blog but I believe that God gave us a life, and he gave us a future seeing how he is timeless and lives in the past, present and future. I believe that he provides us with the freedom to choose our future with what he has given us. Our talents, likes and dislikes may just be the hints he uses to help us. I believe that he put us on this path provide us with options and its up to us to use that power to pick what we want to be happy. Some may aspire to be where they already other, others may aspire to become more. I think that God puts fate and our control together to make our future.

Its a little bit confusing, but thats my theory.

Friends

Humans, as I've mentioned in other posts are social beings. We rely on relationships with others. Friends are people we meet through out our life. We've become close enough to some to consider them family. Well, as we grow we change. Unfortunately with these changes comes with some losses and gains for balance. Its hard to grow up and keep everything as it was. Its a sad realization, but we don't have to lose our close friends. Its all a matter of balance.

Its been killing me

If you read this, fine. Whatever. My punishment for putting it on the internet right? Well, don't give your bs bout it okay? Don't tell me stupid things like 'hate is wrong' whatever. Thats just a giant load of bull. Dont tell me pointless things like 'be positive' that really shows how well you really do know me. I get angry. I'm human, shoot me! I make mistakes, but there's no denying I don't go back on them and try to make it better. I believe in all that zen stuff. I believe in karma. I believe in the Golden Rule. So yes, if you read this well. I feel like saying what's on my mind. So I may retaliate. Just saying, I have a way with words, I can get harsh. Even if I'll regret it later on and apologize, carpe diem. You have been warned.

I hate the way you make me feel small. Its as if I'm below you, where everything I do seems so shocking to you or its as if its a joke. I'm growing up. I'm going through life. Everything changes. I change. One time I may think I like pink, the next minute I'm in love with the colour blue. I'm learning. Leave me alone. That girl you knew, well she's still here it's just that I've added more to her. I'm not stupid, I love who I was. I love who I am. Despite my many faults, this is what defines me. I am not that kind of person though. That much, I do know.

I hate the way you judge me, the way you make me feel insecure. To the point that I hate being around you, I just hate it. I hate how everything I do recieves some sort of critism. But I'm a big girl. I can take it, but its at the point where its, 'Is this what a friend does?'

I hate the way where if people read this they'll assume I'm hating on someone. Are you crazy? Can you not read? Did I ever mention the words ,' I hate you.' I hate what people do. I can hate that an alcoholic drinks, but what if that's my friend? Well I can't hate them right, I still love them. Well these subconcious things we do, well its just like that. Nothing but a bad habit.

I will never hate you. I will never hate who you are. I will hate what you've done. But you're a part of my life. Never will I hate you.

I hate the way that I'm going crazy over this lack of communication and its killing me. The way its been bothering me so much, that I don't talk about it. Instead I let it kill me inside. I'm a talker, if you know me well enough you should be aware that I like to talk things out.

I hate how I'm quite impulsive. I hate how later on I know I will regret pouring out my current feelings on something so public like facebook. I hate how I do a lot without thinking about it enough. I hate how I do think before doing, but I still have this habit of being so careless. Yes I used that word, the word I utterly hate. I don't believe everyone is careless, I think theyre care free. Thinking of the world in a positive matter, thinking of living to the day. But yes, I hate my impulse. I hate my judgement. I hate a lot about myself, but we don't want anyone to start thinking I'm emo now do we?

I hate the way you make me feel as if I will never be enough for you. I hate the way you judge me and what I do. I hate the way you talk to me as if I'm stupider than you. I don't care if you don't intend to make me feel that way, but your actions. It all makes me feel like this.

I express myself in words. Thats who I am. That will never change. What I say or write is exactly how I feel. It is exactly what goes through my mind at the moment. I am what comes out of my mouth. I am a talker. I am word smart. I can't think of any other way to express myself than with words.

What's The Difference?

We, as a society live with hypocricy, as a society. We have groups advocating towards anti-bullying. Telling us that cyber bullying is wrong. But its still not helping a lot. The reason is, from my view that is. Is that media is the reason for it.

We use media to express our medium or message to our audience. But its not working. Bullying isn't declining quite quickly, though people are becoming more aware. Well it's because the media itself bullies.
Think about it. We see celebrities constantly gossiped about. We see their faults being picked at. We see their whole lives as someone reveals it to the whole world. Celebrities have parodies and art made of them that make fun of them.

Well, would we ever allow one to do that to a 'normal' person? So why do we accept it when it happens to a celebrity. Celebrities, or more so actresses or singers should not have to pay a price for their industry. If fame and hate is this price, have we forgotten what our faith tells us? The Golden Rule always taught us to treat others as we would like to be treated.

I surrender

There's a part of me that just wants to give up. In tagalog I would be saying "Gusto ko na sumoko." Or something like that. The stresses I face. The stresses each of us face. Can all be so troubling, tiring, and hopeless.

Have you ever had the feeling that nothing you do is enough?

Where you feel that there is too much for you to face and the easiest thing would be to just surrender. How do you know what love is? How do we know that our friends are true? When will we ever know. The pursuit for answers to questions like this is just exhausting. What happens if you've made a million and one mistakes? Then can you give up? Can we give up when we haven't made any mistakes or successes? When can we say we give up? Should we ever give up? I know life can get very tiring sometimes. But to me. It's never the right time to give up.

I'm Scared

I'm scared of who I am. I'm scared of who I may be. I'm scared of change. The unbearable thought that at any moment everything may grow and change everything all around for the best or the worst just scares me. I'm scared that who I am right now will never be who I am in twenty of thirty years. But the thing is, I want to grow up. I want to find out who I am. Suffering from a current identity crisis I'm absolutely unaware of who I am. I don't even know what I am. This constant fear that my 'successes' will be my only achievements scares me. I'm scared that all that I've acheived, will be the only things I will ever achieve. Please help me. Please help me with this fear. I've never been one to handle stress well or change. I'm scared that I will fall again. Help me because, I'm scared.

You can't handle the truth?

Why tell a lie when it's something so small? Why can't you tell the truth? I understand telling big lies, sometimes theyre to said to protect. But this, it's such a small lie. Yet you still said it, and it still hurt. When you consider someone such a close friend, what do you do when they do something like this?

How could I let that happen?

Every skyscraper stands out but without it's support it just comes tumbling down.

Going on this journey I call life I've met some quite amazing people. If I never met these people I'd probably be someone else. The thing is, I let these people drift away and it was when I let these people drift that my world came tumbling down. I looked for support in the wrong people and I just couldn't stand up again. I'm just happy to say that my worlds coming back to me. I've found the right people again and I'm doing better. Slowly I rebuild myself and all of that begins with my support. With out these people I really wouldn't be me and I have proved that I lost myself. A slow downhill fall, with my life spiraling out of control. I'm getting back on track and it's getting better.
These are letters made for the people in my life decide which one is for you.

I wanna say I'm sorry. I let you drift away and that was a really dumb move. I can say that I've suffered cause losing you in my life has made me lost myself. But that's what growing up is right? It's making decisions and mistakes and that's how we learn. If I didn't make these mistakes I wouldn't find the value in you. I've realized now that some people just have so much more worth that we let them realize. I've taken our friendship for granted and it wasn't till something else happened that I realized my stupidity. I honestly do not have common sense, I always thought I could do things alone. If people just 'disappeared' from my life I thought that I'd be able to do without them. It isn't till now that I realized no one disappears from your life unless you let them. I really want to say thank you that no matter what, you'll always be in my mind and heart. Looking in a mirror I'm not gonna forget that. I'm not gonna forget you.

Thank you! Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for sticking with my despite all my stupidity. Thank you for helping me realize stupid people in my life. Thank you for helping me see that I still have a lot to learn. Thank you for teaching me that it's okay to be imperfect, that it's okay to be loud and more. Thank you for sticking with me even if I pushed you away. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

New friends, old friends; is there really a difference? A friend is a friend. It's like a soulmate somehow. People believe that when you meet that soulmate you just have that instant attraction to them, even without getting to know them. You two just click. It's kind of like love at first sight. Well, new friends become old friends and I hope we stay like that for the rest of our lifes. Yes we have a million years to live, and I want to spend those million years with you.

Sorry, I've really been on this whole 'friendship hype'. I've just been so down and about with friends. I've been trying to realize who I am and who I'm not and who really holds my up. When I get really bothered by things like this I just keep writing or talking about it till it gets out of my system.

Happiness.

Has anyone seen the movie, "The Pursuit of Happiness"? Such a moving movie with an amazing meaning. The most amazing part is the fact that it is based on a true story. Well what would we base our happiness on? Is it the amount of money we have? The amount of friends we have? What makes up true happiness. If anything I think true happiness is me. It is you. Each of us are all so different. How could we shrink the meaning of happiness to one type. There's not just one type of human is there? We are tall, small, wide, thin, smart, loving, kind, mean. We all like different things so how could we possible confine the meaning of happiness to one type?

Liars.

We live in such a big world it would be impossible to please everyone without telling at least one lie. It's a very pessimistic way of looking at everything but without a doubt, it is a little bit true. We're in a world with 6,706,993,152 people. That`s 6,706,993,152 different people, 6,706,993,152 different personalities, 6,706,993,152 unique people. All of us were made to be one of a kind, yes we can find people we get along with but of course we'd find people with whom we couldn't get along with. So why do we continue to pursue success by creating a mask, or a new story for each person we meet. Who said being nice was to like everything someone else liked? Who said being nice was only possible if you could agree with everything someone else said? Who said that being nice wasn't achievable if you didn't like what someone else liked? The thing is, it is possible. With 6,706,993,152 different people in the world, and all the combinations of personalities you're bound to find something you like about that person. As that is possible you're going to find something you don't like. If a friend wants to vent about certain things I do, I absolutely understand. I'm not perfect, you're not perfect, no one is perfect. So why try to be? We all think differently. As long as my friend doesn't disgrace my own personality or mind I have no problem with it. That's how we grow up and learn. It is through constructive critism that we expand. I would want my friend to tell me, "Oh I didn't like that." Because if they didn't tell me things, how do I grow up? I'll continue these mistakes. I don't need a friend who wears a mask. No. I need a friend who will make me a better person. This doesn't mean I want someone who changes me to be like them. Again, 6,706,993,152 people in the world. Each one is different. But I would like someone to tell me when I'm doing something negative. No one wants a liar, just because your lie isn't a negative lie it doesn't mean it makes it any better. A lie is a lie. Lies can't please anyone.

If the only way I'll be happy with you is a lie, I'd rather be miserable.

My very first blog that would seem the most like a blog as I will tell you something about my day, rather than my mind.
Well, I was looking through various blogs and I came upon one I could relate to quite well. This girl was blogging about her and her 'best friend' with whom she had drifted away from. This 'best friend' of hers looks as if she wants to remain friends with her, but she isn't it doing it in the right ways. Asking others, giving looks, its just not right. She continues on to mention something about stopping her 'best friends' current behaviour, or her 'best friend' should attempt direct contact because she is tired of trying. There is one thing I'd like to say to this person, "Amen to that!" I agree. Friendship its like a bridge, it has to start at two ends and meet in the middle. There can't be any gaps in this bridge. Well I think she has the correct view on what a friendship is. It's a two-way street. It requires both people to work together. Friends are equal beings. They walk together, they talk together, they think together. A friend can not always expect the other to go to them. It's hard. We can't always impress you. There are times when you have to go to others.

So I don't usually do this

Have you ever felt empty? Where you just want to sit there, and just sit there. You don't want to think, you don't want to speak, you don't want to do anything. It sounds so depressing yet you're not depressed. You don't even feel anything. Sometimes this could be the best time to look at your life, and reflect upon it.

Girls need to realize....

Take in these words...
WRITTEN BY A GUY

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
Every Guy who isn't a jerkwill agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

Are you happy now?

Why do you put people down? Does it make you feel good to tell others that they 'suck' ? Have you tried to do what they do? Can you exceed at everything they do? Are you them? No you're not. Does it make you feel good to tell others that they're 'soft'? Analytically, you're a bully with a low self esteem. To put others down you prove to be 'superior' because you can excel at one skill that they could not. I'd be careful with what you say to others because if you don't watch out, these 'nerds' have a vocabulary that would verbally murder you. Wouldn't it be embarassing if they could tell you that you're no good using big words ?

A friend is a friend.

What makes a friend? Is it someone you can have fun with ? Could your lab partner be considered a friend? What makes a friend, a friend ?

If you knew who I was, would you call me your friend? Why? Is it because we have mutual friends? Is it because we have fun with each other? Could it be because everyone else is friends with me? Why would you call me your friend?

"I believe in Angels, the ones that heaven sends
I believe in Angels, but i call them my best friends"

"A friend will strengthen you with her prayers, bless you with her love, and encourage you with her hope."

! " I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me. . . I'd like to be the help you've always been glad to be; I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day, as you have meant, old friend of mine, to me along the way."
Sent by Jenny Mcgehee

"A friend is like a rainbow. They brighten your life when you've been through a storm."
Sent by Jenna Palmer

The quotes above all don't talk about people who just say things. They mention actions. To brighten one's life, to walk with someone; actions that refer to things you do. This is probably because actions speak louder than words. As said in earlier blogs, I am not because of what I can do, I am because of what I decide to do. You are not my friend because of what you say. You are my friend because of what you do. Any one you meet can give you good advice, but it is those who will walk to you that matter.

Have you ever had that friend who seems to go to expecting you to be there for them just when there really is no one left for them. Have you ever had that friend who sits with you in class, just because there is no one else. But if they had the chance you know that they would have probably gone to those popular, or ''fun'' people first. Yes we connect through what we say, but when the test of friendship comes, it is what that person does that really shows the extent of how far they would go for you.

Would you really take a bullet for me when you can't even go somewhere with me because you don't want to get into trouble. Think about what you say and think about what you would do. We're all amazing talkers. I mean, I am a talker. I talk more than I walk, but if you ask me, I would walk my talk.

http://www.intervarsity.org/slj/article/1510

There is an article that I have included about what friendship is. I agree with it very much, we will go through lives with many aquaintances. Look at your friends. How many would you honestly confide in? How many can you really truly talk to. Yes, from what I have just described those people would be your best friends. But what makes a friend ? Are you my friend because we're in the same class? Or are you my friend because we have things in common. We use friends as too light of a word. We could easily decribe our best friends because those people are practically family to us. But how do we downgrade a friend. I use to say to many people when they try to conive favours from me,

We are not friends. You are my classmate we are aquaintances.

Just because we tell someone we're not friends, it doesn't mean we have any negative feelings towards them. That is not an aquaintance anymore. An aquaintance is probably much more like someone who's just there. Like a chair almost, but not as shallow. You have no hate for this person, nor do you have any like for this person. They're just there. You would identify with this person, that you are aware of this person being there. But you wouldn't exactly call them your friend.

So what is a friend?

We each have our own definition of a friend. Some, probably the social butterflies may consider everyone their friend. I consider many people a friend, but for me a friend is someone who I don't feel awkward about. Is that a friend?

ThatsWhatLovesAbout

I've been thinking how to step to you
And still try my best to keep my cool
And make sure that I don't break the rules
(While I try to solve a mystery)
Now it seems that everybody knows
But it seems not everybody shows
That love is the only way to go
(No, it doesn't matter what you see)
All I want is for love to live
Let's learn to give love

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about

What love's about; What love's about
What love's about

I'll keep trying hard to help you see
Cause I really wanna' make you see
Help you understand what love can be
(If you'd only, only just believe)
Is there anyway to keep it real
While I try to tell you what I feel
And make sure you really know the deal
(So can anybody talk to me)
All I want is for love to live
Let's learn to give love

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about

What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
What love's about

I'm calling everyone around me
Won't you please, please; Oh tell me
What can make a bond grow stronger
Love can; Love can

When he is down you should help your brother
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
(Ask what you can)
Do when you see he needs help from another
When it comes around we should help one another
Help build him up when he's down and out
That's what love's all about
[repeat]

What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
Ask what you can
What love's about; What love's about; What love's about
That's what love's all about

Speak now or forever hold your peace...

Oh man, does it ever confuse you how one small thing that you say can be misunderstood into a million and one different meanings? Is it ever possible that something is said, just as you heard it? When did it become that someone can not find another person attractive without someone assuming that you now 'like' that person. I mean, who can not identify a good looking man or woman?. Why is it that I can not just speak my mind. If I found something unbearable, why can I not say it? We always tell others when we're happy about something, so why can I not say that I am upset. Yes we look for a deep person, but at times things could only be put in such simple ways.

A little something...

Why is it that I become known for what I am not who I am. But then its about who you know not what you know that moves you forward?

Hey Stephen ♥

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be decieving but I know I saw a light in you
As we walked we were talking I didn't say half the things I wanted
to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be
the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might
have me believin' I don't always have to be alone


Cuz I can't
help it if you look like an angel
Can't help if I wanna kiss you
in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feelin' since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm I can't help
myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling so
I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I've
never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, way you
talk, way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever
change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leavin' I think you and I
should stay the same

Cuz I can't help it if you look like an
angel
Can't help if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel
this magic I've been feelin' since I met you
Can't help it if there's
no one else
Mmm I can't help myself

They're dimming the
streetlights
You're perfect for me, why aren't you here tonight
I'm
waiting alone now so come on and come out and pull me near
Shine, shine,
shine

Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons why I should
be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful, but
would they write dedicate a song for you

Cuz I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help if I
wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feelin'
since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm I can't help myself
If you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel
this magic I've been feelin' since I met you
Can't help it if
there's no one else
Mmm I can't help myself

Oh,
oh
Myself
Mmmm Can't help myself
Can't
help myself
Oh, oh, oh

Crushes. There's a reason why they're called crushes. You get totally crushed with this emotion first of love, then or rejection.

That's Not My Name

Nerd. Jock. Popular. Cheerleader. Goth. Loner. Emo. Princess. Spoiled.
That's not my name.

I have only one label. That label is, my name.

I live up to my name. I live up to my own mind. Has anyone ever noticed that at a certain point in our life we forget who we are? Then we start to live up to what other's expect of us? When did we let that happen. Why do we let that happen ? When we're labelled we instantly find this need to be one type of person. A nerd can only be smart. The jock has to be good at all sports. The popular kids must always be perfect. Et cetera, et cetera. But we were all made to be different. To be unique. How many times can you vary the stereotype of a jock? Now I'm not saying we shouldn't live up to anything. We have parents who know what they're doing. They want us to live up to the name they've given us. We also have our own thoughts and interests. We could live through that. Just understand, we were given minds with thoughts and opinions. We should live by what we know, and decide to do. Not from what people see and what we can do.

ThoseLips;AJRAFAEL

Those Lips - AJ Rafael
why couldn't i just kiss those lips
i'd rather be rejected than regretting this
im tired of being afraid
i wish i coulda made
the choice to be the daring one in this relationship
i know were just friends but i want you to know
that i always think about being more
i guess i'll never know
I guess I’ll never know
how you feel
you got me wonderin'
i want you to be that somebody who
needs me just like how im needing you
but im just so scared
i could not prepare
for the moment when i looked you in the eyes
so i guess i'll just wait for that afternoon
we'll soak up the sun in the middle of june
i can't ask you to wait but you know that i can't stay
i'm a little too late
but you got me wonderin'
i'm holding on to this feeling i have
i've got it so bad i just cant shake it off
when will my mind just be clear
of this move i should've made
its killing me cuz kissing you
is what i wanna do
but now that youve got that somebody new
needs you just like how im needing you
i guess i'll fade away
and now my skies are gray
i'm a little too late
you've got me wonderin

Love. Who invented it? Why did they allow us teenagers to expierence it. It's such a hard thing. When your mind fights your heart and vice versa. Have you ever had the moment when you love someone you can't have? No, I don't mean loving Taylor Lautner. I meant you know. It's this unexplainable feeling. The way you admire someone. The way they give you butterflies. Why does this fluttering feeling have to accompany love. The feeling of getting nauseous is just so horrible. Is it possible to love someone you don't want to? Have you ever had the need to love someone you can't? You know there are a million reasons. Your mind knows it, but for some reason your heart just doesnt get it. Why did God make us with two minds ?

What Am I?

What am I ? Am I a jock ? Am I cool ? Am I a nerd ? Am I popular ? Why is it that I ask 'What am I'?

An unfortunate thing that has become of our society is that we have become 'Whats'. Upon meeting someone new, what do we usually ask ? We ask them 'What are you?' Are you a Filipino? Are you Canadian ? What are you? Since when have we lost who we are? The value of who we are has decreased. Society has learned to judge us on our material objects, to our marketable skills. Since when had it become so important or so necessary to find out what we are. We are people. We are not these objects that can just be seen or felt. We have thoughts, opinions, voices to be heard. Yes many of us are able to overcome what we are when we socialized. But what had initially attracted to you to that 'friend' ? Was it the fact that they were pretty, or an athlete? What was it ? See. Does it really matter whether we are good looking, athletic, or rich ? Examine your friendships with your friends, did any of these traits ever have any real effect on what you guys do? Did your friends looks, skills or such matter when you needed them most? If they make no difference in our relationships, why do we consider them so important?

In a social society we have learned to market ourselves on what we do. Many of us aspire to become whatever can get us the most money or fame. We make a competition to who can be the best. We socialize through how marketable we are. Unfortunately, this is how we meet our friends. But have you ever wondered what goes on through the mind of that person beside you? Have you ever wondered if they could help you, or talk to you ?

' The best gifts come in the strangests
packages.'

Milestones

Each first we have becomes an important part of our life. It's been said that there is a first for everything, and I would just like to say, 'Duh!' Each first is a beginning, how do you do something without beginning it ? Catch my drift ? Well back to firsts, this is my very first blogspot. Oh boy, let's take a kodak moment for my album. Well what do I talk about here ? Do I continue with talking about firsts ? My first word ? Steps? School? To be honest I don't really remember those importants firsts, and it's not as if I have any other firsts. But I will try to tell you when I have my first love, drink, smoke uhm you knooow ;) Ahahaha. Well How was this first ? Was it as good for me as it was for me ? Ahaha. Well I'm at school and I gotta bounce now. Just understand if you keep following this blog, expect some more sappiness, cheese, and all of those 'deep things'. I told you its a walk through my mind. Better bring some life jackets if you're gonna keep walking through my mind cause it is deep.